Blah

Do you ever have one of those days where everything is just 'blah'? I am having one today. I am desperately missing my husband. His birthday is in a few days and I am sad that we won't be able to celebrate together. When we thought he would be coming in on the 16th of September, it seemed okay. Now, we don't even have a date. He has a doctors appointment on the 19th and that is when he will get his surgery date. It could be that week or who knows when. So we have no clue when he will get to come. And it's depressing. And frustrating.

I try not to be such a Debbie Downer because I know he has it 1000x times worse than me. Most of the time I try to put on this big front that everything is fine. For the most part it is. But the part where I am away from my husband and my kids are away from their father takes over. We chose to do this. I knew it would be hard. It's just those days where I feel like running back to California is what gets me. 

We have 2 years left. And I know that they will not go by fast enough. I am never one to wish time away, but I have been here lately. When either one of us start doubting our decision, we try to be the rock to reassure each other that this is the best thing for our future. It helps. But it's tough when we are both down. Robert hates his job. He is unable to do the things he loves due to his knee. This kills me. I hate that he is hurt. I hate that he loathes his job. If I could find a way to make it all go away, I would. But I can't. So we wait. And we take it day by day.

Sorry to dump so much emotion. But this is my blog and I want to be honest. We will all be okay. Eventually, we will all be back together, under one roof for good. What an amazing day that will be!! That is what keeps me going.